€75
-To stand around awkwardly with a drink in my hand, not even alcoholic, though I did like the lemonade they were serving
, and try and make smalltalk with a few girls, whom I could consider friends, from my grade;
-To greet over fifty people who's first names I didn't know, let alone their full names;
-To sit at a table with people I've probably said a total of 100 words to, for each person, most of them a greeting. And to awkwardly eat what was horrible food;
-To stare at my phone and try to avoid conversation with people I disliked;
-To take 'frozen smile' pictures which I hate seeing as most people don't look good in them and there's nothing interesting happening, ever;
And for Reon and others who insist I get laid: I didn't like almost anyone there, and the few girls I considered friends I'd already asked out before and gone out once or just been rejected. In addition, I have about 40 days left in Spain, 13 of which are school days. Half of the forty I'm going to spend studying for exams or at school, and the other half trying to break bonds with people slowly so I don't get a nasty shock when I leave. I do this for two reasons, one, it helps cushion the pain, and two, so I don't expect to remain in contact with them, which I suck at remaining in contact anyways. I'm not going to form any relationships with anyone and I for me sex has to have some kind of emotional connection, so I'm not going to go for a one night stand either.
And remind me never to waste €75 like that again.
