This is not connected to anything. It is also fairly long.
Worms of nerves were racing under her skin. This is fine. Things are going to be A-OK, no problems to be found, and it is full of good and everything is super fine. Her nerves were still on fire. There’s no reason for them to be. One conversation, that’s all.
Pace’s shoes squeaked against the floor, each sound raising her nerves another notch. Calm. Calm down. There are no reasons to worry. Matt said this would be ok.
Squeak, cried her shoes, and dammit she should have not worn her trainers today. Stupid, stupid, lazy.
No, nope. This is fine.
Squeak, went her shoes again, and Pace let her palm hit her face. Calm down. She dragged the hand down her face, eyes opening in its wake. Same snow-field of squeaky floors. Damn, she should not have worn her trainers -- Harley could probably pick up every bit of dirt she left behind her and then they would know she’d been walking in circles and then they’d know she’s nervous and god everything sucked.
At least the walls were not white. Harley wouldn’t be able to see how Pace had been leaning against the wall. Wait. Damn, colour wouldn’t do anything to hide that. Harley probably could see the sweat. No, calm down. If Harley was bothered by it, they’d be bothered by literally everything in the place. She’s a human -- Harley’s smart enough to know how humans litter cells everywhere and
dammit Pace had been a moron. No reason to worry, she’s just another human to Harley. Chill for god’s sake. Harley would expect humans to be shedding themselves all the time.
Except that most humans did not walk back and forth while waiting for them, and god damn it Pace had been doing it again. Imagine if Matt had seen? He would giggle about it for weeks.
Deliberately, Pace went back to her chair and
sat. If there was a way to sit with decisiveness, she damn well near achieved it. She found herself looking at the clock on the opposite wall. Ten more minutes.
The moment she read the clock, the nervous energy was back, and she was back on her squeaking shoes. Screw being laughed at. She needed calm. Calm calm calm calm calm.
Note: repeating the word
calm over and over again really does not help in, you know, becoming calm. Stupid Pace. Stupid, stupid, Harley probably would join Matt if they heard him make fun of Pace, and then where would Pace be? Other than in a pit of shame. And in the location of being laughed at. Dammit.
As she passed it, Pace looked again to the clock. Nine minutes. Wow, she got a lot done in that minute. Nope, she can’t do this. She can’t do this! She needs to call this off. It may be one conversation, but
doing the conversation would either break everything or well, not break everything but make everything scream in nerves and pressure and Harley can probably pick up on that and then Pace would absolutely be in that pit of shame and--
‘You asked for me?’
Pace nearly screamed, and certainly she did not trip on her own feet, nope, ha ha. Ok. Be cool, Pace. Be the coolest butterfly ever -- be cooler than a butterfly because they aren’t really super cool but they are damn cool. Pace looked behind her.
‘Oh! H-hey, Harley.’ Pace pushed her face into what
kinda felt like a smile? Damn her. This is already a steaming pile of donkey hair. ‘You, phew, you got here quick.’
There was a pause. Then, Harley’s facial display blinked into raising one eyebrow. Wait, that’s a single one? Oh man, they can do the “the heck?” expression, Pace is doomed. Doomed! The blue lights blinked back to being neutral after a moment.
‘My apologies, ma’am,’ they said. They “blinked.” ‘Did you require my assistance?’
‘Uhhh no, not really?’ Pace said automatically.
Wait, shit, balls.
‘Very well,’ Harley was saying and no no no no that’s not what Pace meant to say.
Pace darted forward and caught Harley’s wrist. The smooth metal was cold against her fingers, not betraying an inch of the processes running under them.
‘W-wait, wait.’ Pace’s tongue was lead in her mouth. ‘Wait,’ she repeated.
Harley did as they were asked. Their head tilted, display blinking to look “down” at Pace’s hand. Oh damn, they know. Pace immediately let go. Don’t blush, for god’s sake.
When she let go, Harley stayed put. They were utterly motionless, like a sorcerer carved from marble, or from ice at summertime. Their display blinked back into raising an eyebrow.
That’s your cue to talk, moron. Pace smiled again, trying to keep it normal. ‘I just wanted to um, you know. Um.’
Harley had stopped right under one of the lights. The white glow surrounded them. It painted moonlight across every facet, turning wires and plates into diamonds.
Their visor was still raising an eyebrow. Blue and black -- the only black on them. ‘I do not know, ma’am,’ they said.
‘Don’t call--’ Pace bit her tongue. Don’t call me ma’am, you are absolutely allowed to talk to me, don’t call me ma’am, please. ‘I just wanted to… you know.’ Dammit, tongue. Work please.
The visor blinked, it was back to neutral, and some part of Pace was labelling it as “disinterest” or “annoyance,” and Harley hated her. That was it. She was done, dead, roasted.
‘As I said,’ Harley intoned, ‘I do not know.’
Words fled Pace like a barrage from a gun. ‘Hangoutwithme?’
The clock’s ticking was really, really loud. Pace could feel the heat of nerves now. Aw crap, Harley is going to sense that. Oh god. Oh god she is screwed.
Harley’s visor blinked a few times. Twin question marks, only for a second, then maybe a smile, then that raised eyebrow again and back to neutral.
‘I do not understand, ma’am,’ they declared.
Don’t call me that. ‘No, no that’s fine. That’s fine as fu-- as, stuff.’ Crap, crap crap crap. ‘Matt um, he said that you wanted to do… stuff. And he said that I should um, I should help? Do stuff?’
Her nerves were shaking in her skin, tensed up and afraid. She was ice, melting under the moonlight’s radiance. Should have had more clarity. That was not clear. Work, talk, dumb tongue, dumb you little dumb.
The slight whirring -- so quiet that Pace had tuned it out long ago -- kicked up a barely noticeable notch.
‘My apologies,’ Harley finally said. Their expression was painfully neutral. ‘Are you referring to Mr. Morner’s conversation on the twelfth? ‘
Was that when the non-work talk was? Pace thought it was the twelve. Maybe?
‘Um… yes!’ Just go for it, just go for it. ‘Yes, that is exactly it, yes, right. That. That is exactly what I am talking about.’
And the winner of the “most eloquent speaker award” goes to Pace. Good job with that clarity.
‘I see,’ Harley said.
Tick, tick, tick, went the clock. Why were they made so loud?
‘I do not understand.’
Pace had no idea what her face did, but it probably looked dumb. ‘What? But you--’
Oh! Stupid, stupid idiot!
‘--
Ohhhh, right.’ Pace cleared her throat. Maybe it would reset her stumbling tongue. ‘Hang out. Have you… have you heard that phrase before?’
Harley’s vision blinked. This expression had the eyebrows tilted into what would be two sides of a triangle. Their mouth was a small and thin line.
‘I have not,’ they said.
‘Oh god--’ You idiot, don’t speak in pretty much a foreign language! Pace scooped into her pocket and tried to find her phone. ‘Ok. Ohhhhkay. Give me a second.’
Again, the silence was filled by the ticking. It echoed in the room. Pace quickly pecked the words
Hang Out Define in the search bar.
...Helpful.
‘In spite of seconds being an abstract noun, I have gifted you with one.’
Pace’s eyes darted up in time to see what was (
yeah that was) an amused expression on Harley’s display. It blinked away the second Pace saw it. Oh god, she was blushing, wasn’t she?
‘Yeah, you have,’ Pace said. Her voice had to be a good octave higher. ‘Uh, right. Ok. Hang out.’
She looked again to the screen. Pace really didn’t think that washing clothes was going to help.
‘It’s basically when… two or more people get together and… do stuff.’
That was pathetic.
Harley’s display blinked back into amused. ‘You are not skilled at definitions,’ they noted.
‘Nope!’ Pace was definitely blushing. Harley absolutely knew. Oh man, she is going to die. ‘Ha, you’ve got me all clued up.’
...Why is Harley not saying anything? Oh damn, oh god damn. The light reflecting from them was making gorgeous patterns around the walls, just like Harley did with every-- don’t stare they’ll think you’re weird.
Pace had to keep talking. The ticking clock was far too loud. ‘Ha ha, you’re going to need to ask someone else for a propa thing, but that’s fine. right? Absolutely, totally, yup. Ha.’ Her voice was whiny and pitched into pain. ‘That’s all--’
Harley cut over Pace. ‘You were asking me to partake in “doing stuff” in a get together?’
Pace’s tongue tangled around itself. ‘Sorta?’
That was not what she meant to say.
‘Matt s-- Matt, he um. Social interaction and stuff and he thought I’d be best at it even though I’m rubbish and you can say no if you want to!’ Pace clamped her mouth shut.
Tick, tick, tick.
Good job. You’ve ruined everything. Harley will decline, then they’ll tell Matt about how weird Pace had been and then he’ll probably hack the cameras in this room and find the recordings and then he’d never let Pace around Harley again because she’s weird and she’ll never be able to chat with Harley between shifts and--
‘What would occur?’
‘Huh?’
Harley sounded patient, right? ‘When we are “hang-ing out.” What would occur?’
Pace tore her mind out of her thoughts, and became very interested in her trainers. Look at how dirt-coated they are. Wow. ‘Uhhh. I was thinking play video games?’ Her thoughts scrambled again, begging for attention. ‘Just… not worky, obligation stuff. Doing things for fun? You know what--’
‘Yes, I know what fun is.’
‘Good! Great!’ Pace said to the floor. ‘Wow. You are ama-- a really well put together… person. Yup. Ha ha.’ Oh god why did you say that.
‘I see. Very well.’
She really needed to clean these shoes. She should have thought today through. It would take immeasurable effort to force her gaze back up to meet Harley’s display.
Pace managed to raise her gaze to Harley’s foot. What an achievement, not.
‘...Wait, was that a yes?’ Pace managed.
It probably wasn’t, you are getting your hopes--
‘Yes.’
Unbidden, Pace’s neck spasmed to facing forward. Harley was still there, not looking like they hated Pace.
‘Oh! Wow, ok. Um.’
Harley was looking neutral. Were they happy about this? Just acting out of obligation? Shit, Pace should not have mentioned Matt, Harley may be doing this cause of obligation. Shit shit
shit.
‘When do you want to?’ Pace said. She coughed, trying to dispel some of her dumb little dumbness. ‘Hang out, I mean.’
Harley’s head tilted -- the first time the statue moved in the conversation. The lights scattered like birds in the sky, like thoughts in the wind, like starlight far above.
‘I will need to consult with Mr. Morner,’ they said.
Oh thank god, they weren't brushing this off. Relief made Pace’s shoulders sag. ‘Well, he’s the one who said I should get a move on-- um.’
If she had the power to glare at her tongue, she would be the queen of the world.
‘Yeah, and so he’s all for us.’ Pace felt her eyes widen and she quickly tried to correct herself. ‘Hanging.’
Harley blinked back into a raised eyebrow.
‘Do you have a favourite pizza?’ Pace blurted out. ‘I was thinking pizza. I’m rubbish cook.’
Harley’s head tilted back to not being tilted. ‘I… enjoy pineapple,’ they said.
‘Pineapple?’ A grin wanted to leap into Pace’s life, shout praises, scream with joy. No, don't celebrate too early. Unbidden, her mind leapt over her reason and steamrolled her. ‘D-do you mean you’ve had it on pizza or are you talking about you’ve had it separately, because I know that Matt bloody well loathes it and if you haven’t had it he will kill me if you like it because then he’ll have to--’
Harley raised a hand. It was a smooth gesture, metal plates sliding against each other without a whisper of sound. Pace shut up.
‘I enjoy pineapple pizza,’ Harley stated. Their display blinked into amusement. ‘Mr Morner and I have had discussions on the topic.’
‘Oh. Peaceful ones?’ Because the talks with Matt
she had were filled with shouting and screaming and “your taste buds suck.”
Harley’s display did not so much as twitch. ‘No. He threw a spanner at me once. He missed.’ The display blinked. Pace wasn't sure what changed. ‘I did not,’ Harley stated.
Huh. That did not sound safe.
‘He ok?’ Pace asked.
Harley’s display whirred into a frown, then back to neutral. ‘I see your misunderstanding. It was made of rubber.’
Wha…?
‘I'm lost,’ Pace said. She pressed a hand to the back of her neck. It felt warm with settling nerves. She was doing this! ‘But hey! Someone else who likes pineapple pizza here! Sweet, literally, so you'll talk to Matt and let me know when you want to hang?’
Harley moved again, this time to nod. Again, Pace didn't hear a sound.
‘That seems the best course of action,’ they said.
Pace nodded more times than necessary. ‘Ok! Great. See you… when I see you.’
Oh yes! Look at her, the master of diplomacy! The queen of romance! Yes! Whoo! She was amazing, take that nerves!
Before she reached the door, Harley’s voice halted her in her tracks.
‘What games do you have?’
Pace’s thoughts scrambled. Like eggs. Or jelly. Beaten and confused and mildly wary but mostly wobbly in excitement. ‘Oh um, I've GTA -- Grand Theft Auto -- and I got some old Zelda games. And when I say old, I mean
old, like, the top down ones. Some more too. Matt’ll probably rummage through it all like a maniac beforehand, I can ask him to make a list for you. If there's any in particular you want to play, I could go buy a copy?’
The time it took for Harley to reply was achingly long. Did she do it wrong? Pace could feel her heartbeat in her neck, clutching to her in fear. Did she do it wrong?
‘That is fine,’ Harley said. Relief poured down like rain.
Then--
‘Thank you, ma’am.’
Oh.
Oh fuck, no, please.
Pace ruthlessly held onto her smile. No. Harley was not doing this because they're a robot -- they are Harley, they are
Harley, don't think stupid things like that! Harley is Harley and Harley is amazing, and there's no way Pace is accidentally forcing Harley into this… right?
Her tongue was lead again.
‘O-oh. No… no problem,’ Pace forced out. ‘See you?’
Harley inclined their head in a nod.
Pace fled the room.
Word Count: 2,555
Time: 97 minutes (1:37)
Prompt 1:
Crush FilterIn TV, one method to show that person A has a crush on person B is to switch to A's perspective and show B in an incredibly flattering light.
Prompt 2:
Pinocchio Syndrome"I Just Want To Be Normal." But with Normal being Human. Sometimes this refers to humans that were forced into being something else, or the individual in question has never been human and just want to be.
By the way, the reason there are two is because A) I skipped over one prompt out and needed to make it up, and B) because I needed something other than Crush Filter for ideas.
Goals: Write romance.
Thoughts:
One of the main blots of advice writers toss out is “write what you know.” Another is “shamelessly steal from other writers,” but that isn't pertinent to this. The things I know have absolutely nothing to do with romance. I know zilch about it, and regularly have disdain towards the topic, especially if it is the sole thing holding up a work. I dislike romance as a literary device.
Naturally, that means I should practice writing it.
To that end, I ended up writing a dialogue-only script of 600 or so words (20 minutes), just to try and make it at least sound ok. I have no idea if I pulled off the romance or not, but hey, I ended up writing a metaphorical ton. I got dialogue practice, description + plot practice, and a good dash of writing a short story practice. I also greatly enjoy how I ruthlessly avoided using the phrase "Pace paced." =D
I did plan to write the same scene again, from Harley's perspective, but then the length grew very long.
Anyway, Next Time:
Please let this on actually be within my field of knowledge. Please.
Pep Talk Song...Ok then.