Post #90283
December 29, 2016, 11:15:48 PM
So...yeah. Team Max/Doug will have to find a new name since that relationship will be dissolving fairly soon. I was hoping to do it before the new year, but it's been damn near impossible to find the right moment...since I don't want to do it at work.
But yeah. I've really been trying, but for some reason I just haven't been feeling it. I've been trying to push through it since I really do love him...but I think it's because while I do actually and genuinely love him, it's in a different capacity than someone I want to spend the rest of my life with. He's been an ansolute wonder in my life, and I dread the idea of breaking his heart. But if I'm not feeling it, I don't want to drag both him and the relationship down...he deserves much better than that.
So...yeah. It'll probably be a while before I jump back into dating again this time. Normally I bounce back rather quickly, but I think I really do need some time to find myself and figure myself out...figure what it is that's missing that I can't seem to find with the people I've dated. This relationship has taught me that I've definitely made strides with pulling down my walls...but it's also shown that there's still some things that have to be fixed and figured out before I can truly give my all to someone.