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I actually quite enjoy people like Seroim. Sure, he's a dick, but he's an honest and indiscriminatory dick. His verbal diarrhoea is always incredibly funny. Actually, I foresee a niche for you as a journalist at a men's magazine. Or a career blogger. Your gaming reviews are actually some of the best I've read.

EDIT: I mean, for one thing, I completely trust that you're telling the truth as you perceive it. Unlike those fucktards at IGN who whore themselves out to the corporations.

You know, all my life, teachers and parents and other students (when they needed me for teamwork anyway) kept telling me how smart I am and how successful I'm gonna be. I've never thought of myself as anything other than decidedly average, or even slightly below average. I always excuse my successes by pointing out to other, external factors. I got good grades in uni not because I'm smart, but because uni is easy and has zero standards, for instance.

How then do I reconcile that with the fact that the majority of people don't find college that easy? Simple. I may be average or a bit dumber than average, but everyone else is a complete moron who would be hard-pressed to answer 2 + 2 correctly. The things I know, I think they are the bare basics of what anyone should know and I'm always surprised when I have to explain anything I know to other people because I think they should know it too. You don't know that Botswana's capital city is Gaborone (pronounced à la Dutch)? Have you ever looked at a damn map? It's written right there!

Praise has always bothered me. First, because it embarrasses me. Second, because I don't really draw anything positive from it. I think it's meaningless because it makes me feel like a farsighted guy getting his eyesight praised by a bunch of blind people. Then again, I'm pretty much immune to criticism too. Generally, I don't really care one whit what the plebe thinks about who I am or what I do. Sometimes I get indignant that it dares to criticize me, but only when what they propose would be stupid even to somebody without my personality defects.

If I had highly inflated self-esteem I would probably be a narcissist, but as I wrote, I'm just average, or slightly below par depending on the day.

That really hinders my development because I'm reluctant to take advice from others while at the same time I think most of what I do is shit, I just do it less badly than others.

My personality and my cognition are just flawed in so many ways that sometimes I doubt I can thrive in the modern world, and I know that's not something I can change. Today's globalized world is all about teamwork and people skills and tolerance to alternate ways to do things. I have none of that. Teamwork for me means that I do all the real shit and send the peons to do the menial shit like bibliographies (and correct it anyway), my people skills are awful because I do not really know what tact is and as for tolerance...well people would probably rightly call me a xenophobe if I didn't dislike my own people just as much as foreigners. I'm just a misanthrope.

There used to be jobs for misfits like me. Lighthouse keeper or some shit. Now there's nothing. I feel kind of out of place.

This whole thing appears to show an intense misunderstanding of what an average is...

You know, all my life, teachers and parents and other students (when they needed me for teamwork anyway) kept telling me how smart I am and how successful I'm gonna be. I've never thought of myself as anything other than decidedly average, or even slightly below average. I always excuse my successes by pointing out to other, external factors. I got good grades in uni not because I'm smart, but because uni is easy and has zero standards, for instance.

How then do I reconcile that with the fact that the majority of people don't find college that easy? Simple. I may be average or a bit dumber than average, but everyone else is a complete moron who would be hard-pressed to answer 2 + 2 correctly. The things I know, I think they are the bare basics of what anyone should know and I'm always surprised when I have to explain anything I know to other people because I think they should know it too. You don't know that Botswana's capital city is Gaborone (pronounced à la Dutch)? Have you ever looked at a damn map? It's written right there!

Praise has always bothered me. First, because it embarrasses me. Second, because I don't really draw anything positive from it. I think it's meaningless because it makes me feel like a farsighted guy getting his eyesight praised by a bunch of blind people. Then again, I'm pretty much immune to criticism too. Generally, I don't really care one whit what the plebe thinks about who I am or what I do. Sometimes I get indignant that it dares to criticize me, but only when what they propose would be stupid even to somebody without my personality defects.

If I had highly inflated self-esteem I would probably be a narcissist, but as I wrote, I'm just average, or slightly below par depending on the day.

That really hinders my development because I'm reluctant to take advice from others while at the same time I think most of what I do is shit, I just do it less badly than others.

My personality and my cognition are just flawed in so many ways that sometimes I doubt I can thrive in the modern world, and I know that's not something I can change. Today's globalized world is all about teamwork and people skills and tolerance to alternate ways to do things. I have none of that. Teamwork for me means that I do all the real shit and send the peons to do the menial shit like bibliographies (and correct it anyway), my people skills are awful because I do not really know what tact is and as for tolerance...well people would probably rightly call me a xenophobe if I didn't dislike my own people just as much as foreigners. I'm just a misanthrope.

There used to be jobs for misfits like me. Lighthouse keeper or some shit. Now there's nothing. I feel kind of out of place.

Well, I mean, you can either change your views on people and how you see them, or you can go to a port, they have a lot of lighthouses there.

Raven from Alexandria doesn't like me

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I finally cut an annoyance completely out of my life, I feel so much better

Spent so much time sleeping today...doing the whole soda detox thing again, and that's always what happens. I have to do this on the weekend, cause I just couldn't do it when I have to go to work...for the first day or two, I always feel like I've had the energy sucked out of me. v_v

Otherwise, still dealing with jaw pain...not really bad, just annoying. I think the growth of my wisdom tooth has aggravated my TMJ condition...which I now think is the mystery illness I had several months before I joined NationStates. All the symptoms I had at the time line up...the jaw pain, the clicking/grindy noises when I chewed, the bouts of dizziness, the headaches...it's just that they all didn't happen at the same time. Apparently TMJ is also aggravated by stress, which I had been under the last few months because of my work situation...coincidentally enough, I was also under stress when I first had all that happen as well.

The good news on that is that the state has passed a budget for next year that doesn't cut anything for high ed, so I'm hoping that after July 1 the furlough/pay cut is lifted and I can go back to making a full salary. I also have a promotion request in with HR since I've taken on so many other duties where they laid off other workers, and if I got that I would also get a pay raise...we'll see, though.

Arrested some guy for possession of controlled drugs. All in all, a good day.

Don't people get executed for that in Singapore or something?

Don't people get executed for that in Singapore or something?

Dear god, of course not! Only traffickers do, some of the time, very rarely and you pretty much need to be carrying a ridiculously large amount to even be charged. And most of the time the state just reduces a trafficking charge to multiple possession charges.

I think he just gets that assumption from the strict "not even allowed to sell chewing gum" atmosphere in Singapore
And if you hadn't told us otherwise, I would've also thought that that was something they would do.

I think he just gets that assumption from the strict "not even allowed to sell chewing gum" atmosphere in Singapore
And if you hadn't told us otherwise, I would've also thought that that was something they would do.

To be honest they only reaaaly execute the kingpins. And the guys arrested for possession are sent to Drug rehabilitation centers, not jail, so there is that.

I just remember some big case involving Australian tourists to Singapore that got caught with weed and were sentenced to a harsh penalty...maybe a few years in jail or something. It really pissed Australia off.