Post #97690
May 28, 2017, 04:42:57 AM
So, let's see...updates since my last ones on here...
Well, a day after I posted the eventual breakup notice, I ended up breaking up with Doug. He was exceptionally cool about it, and we're still friends. As of writing this, he's already found another guy in his life, and I'm really happy for him. He deserves someone great in his life, and I hope this guy is nothing but for him.
two of my best friends ended up divorcing very shortly after I mentioned that one of them had run off to Colorado without giving the other one the actual reason as to why she was leaving. I guess at the moment they're working to be friends, and I admire the strength that the other friend has in being able to do that; if my partner had left me and made it seem like they were just off visiting, only to suddenly throw out a divorce out of nowhere when they're miles away...I wouldn't have wanted to see their face or talk to them ever again.
My job is still the same for the most part. I work the early morning shifts now, and handle all of the movies and video games for our store. Eventually I'm hoping I can become a Department Manager...but only time will tell. Apparently I get talked about a lot around the managers, and I'm assuming that's a good thing since I try to work my hardest and actually like being there.
I think the biggest update of all is that I'm dating again. I've had some hit or misses in the past two months (which I didn't seriously jump back into the game until April), but I'm really hopeful this time. It's also a bit...unusual for me because it's not just one person I'm dating...it's two. They both know about each other, and in fact they're dating each other as well. One of them is one of my good friends who I've known for a while, and is the one who encouraged the other a bit when he knew I was possibly interested. I've always been attracted to him ever since we first started chatting, but the timing has always been poor because he was always single when I had a boyfriend, and vice versa. The other guy is one that I feel like I'm really falling for as well (and I get the feeling that it's mutual).
My issue with guys is that I have a hard time being completely open with them. With people in general I feel like I can't genuinely talk to them about anything without a secondary thing (IE alcohol) involved, so I tend to keep a lot of negative feelings/emotions to myself and let them fester.
With him, though...I feel like I can talk to him about anything. On our last couple of dates with just the two of us, we talked quite a bit, and every time I started to talk, he would hold me close, play with my hair, and kiss my head. He would listen to me completely non-judging, not responding, just listening. With him I don't feel anything negative...which for me is not very common since I can be riddled with self-doubt.
But it's the same with the one that's my good friend as well. When I'm around him, I just feel like I can be completely myself, and that nothing else matters. It's a bit...different than it was with Doug to where I don't feel like I have to hold anything back, and when I'm asked what I'm thinking, I can actually respond with complete truth that I just can't stop thinking about how unreal things are because of just how happy I am just getting texts from either of them...let alone being around them. Both of them are just constantly on my mind when I'm at home or at work.
I'm really hoping for the stars for this one, but I have a feeling that even if it may not reach the stars, things are going to continue to go up as far as this relationship goes...something I'd never thought I'd say concerning more than one person since I've always been strictly monogamous. But in this case...I'm willing to be a little adventurous.
