Post #25996
November 26, 2014, 03:00:00 PM
I'm in a bit of conflict. I can't leave here. I really want to. But I can't.
I am hurt and upset, confused even. But I love this region.
I'm sorry for the hurtful things I have said, and I will eventually fully forgive what has been done to me.
I don't know where my place is here, but there are too many people I care about here to just abandon Wintreath.
I will not be involved in politics, I shouldn't have been in the first place. The thing I enjoyed about this place was the community, has always been the community, and I lost sight of that in a moment of insanity.
I know this has changed things, but maybe that change is for the best. I don't know to be honest.
I've been through a hell of a few weeks. The pain from my wisdom teeth, the absence of taking medication like I should (quitting cold turkey), bouts of depression, and the news that the only person I've had interest in a long time will probably die in a few months. I should have been more open and less distant. I have been so caught up in my own life I have neglected to think about how my words might shape others.
None of those are excuses for my actions. I shouldn't have drug Wintermoot through the carpet for a decision he feels is right. I still do not agree with him, but there have been things I have done he doesn't agree with either.