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Because I've been poor all my life, when I buy something and I can, I make sure to buy higher-quality stuff that will last longer...I don't tend to buy things unless I'm sure I'll use it, and I want the stuff I use to last a long time. I've even got stuff from when I was a teenager, lol.

How is that mouse treating you?

Whatever the reason is, I'm glad that you still visit us and keep us up-to-date with how things are going in your life.

Because I've been poor all my life, when I buy something and I can, I make sure to buy higher-quality stuff that will last longer...I don't tend to buy things unless I'm sure I'll use it, and I want the stuff I use to last a long time. I've even got stuff from when I was a teenager, lol.

I dunno. You guys are a pretty likable bunch. Especially Laurentus.

Tell me about it...about to buy a Fluke 787. Used, not new, I'm not insane. These things are worth $1000 new...found one good as new for $450 and that doesn't happen every day, so I consider myself lucky.

After a further $200 I'll have a pretty complete set of tools for my job. I'll just need a drill but that can wait.

Ladies and mollusks,

I was thinking to myself "Where do you even get three portraits of the Kim family?"
Then I remembered the internet exists.

I was thinking to myself "Where do you even get three portraits of the Kim family?"
Then I remembered the internet exists.

You get them from me.

So I got an email from Tapatalk...we could automatically migrate to Tapatalk groups if we wanted.

Yesterday while I was at work, someone claiming to be from the sewer company came to my house and told my mom that one of the posts for the fence we had installed in the back yard  last year had damaged a main sewer line and that they were going to dig up our yard and tear down our fence to fix it. My mom threw him off the property because his story didn't add up, and afterwards he dug at the post from the neighbor's yard jabbed the concrete holding it up with a tool. We reported this to the city and the water/sewer company, and turns out this person isn't with the sewer company. They came and took pictures of the hole he'd dug to investigate what's going on and who is responsible.

I've lived at my current location for almost five years, and almost from the moment we moved in we've had to deal with people trying to steal or damage our property because it apparently pisses people off that we're homebodies that work to have a nice house to live in. That's why we put up a tall fence to begin with. When we moved in that neighborhood it was a nice, peaceful, family community, but now it's not a good neighborhood at all.

Just looking to sale and move someplace better at this point. We deserve to live somewhere that's decent and peaceful, and that's not here.

How is that mouse treating you?

In fairness, I always thought that all mouses were about the same except for the expensive ones with gaudy LED lighting. But it's nice...it feels good using it, but work won't buy me one for the office so I'm stuck with generic office mice there, lol.

I dunno. You guys are a pretty likable bunch. Especially Laurentus.

Tell me about it...about to buy a Fluke 787. Used, not new, I'm not insane. These things are worth $1000 new...found one good as new for $450 and that doesn't happen every day, so I consider myself lucky.

After a further $200 I'll have a pretty complete set of tools for my job. I'll just need a drill but that can wait.

Yeah, Laurentus brings all the boys to the yard.

So how are things going with your career choice? I take it from the big investment in tools that you're enjoying what you're doing?

I feel like these lyrics from a My Chemical Romance song sum up my feelings towards being so popular quite well: "The doctors and the nurses, they adore me so, but it's really quite alarming, 'cause I'm such an awful fuck."

I feel like these lyrics from a My Chemical Romance song sum up my feelings towards being so popular quite well: "The doctors and the nurses, they adore me so, but it's really quite alarming, 'cause I'm such an awful fuck.

I bet your subordinate thinks otherwise. Zing!

Seriously, I don't know why you think so lowly of yourself. Other than the whole repeatedly calling me and the IRC team corrupt thing a few years back, I can't think of any issues you've had here at least.

I have this thing where, no matter what I accomplish, I can never be certain I deserved it. Most of the time it feels like I was simply at the right place at the right time. I keep challenging myself and set progressively higher goals for myself, while almost never failing, but this feeling just won't go away. I don't even know why I have this compulsive need to be the best, I just do. It's some form of insecurity that I just can't seem to break free of. I need to keep proving to myself that I've got what it takes, except I'm never satisfied with the proof. It never stops, either.

It sounds to me like your insecurity is based around something more fundamental than workplace advancement or a need to be the best. I'm curious, what do you think it'd be like if you failed at something? How would you feel about that?

When I have failed, the experience has been utterly crushing. It takes me weeks to recover, and while I seem to come back stronger and tougher, I remember the times I failed much more vividly than all the times I succeed.

EDIT: And it's much worse when I'm doing something in a team. Every team mate's failure hurts me, personally, as if I could have done something to prevent the outcome. It's completely irrational, but I can't shake it, either. This has been abused, too. Instead of letting people learn from their failures, I unwittingly become a crutch and take on more and more responsibilities, just so I won't have to deal with the feeling that I let someone on my team (or even in my relationships) down. This isn't healthy for anyone involved, since people never learn to take responsibility, and I end up decreasing my own estimation of myself when it turns out I couldn't be a literal god and help everyone I meet.

So how are things going with your career choice? I take it from the big investment in tools that you're enjoying what you're doing?

I had to drive to Montreal to get the thing. Not much supply or demand in that kind of implement. Honestly, it's as mint as used can be mint. There's not even a scratch on it - I wonder if it's been used at all. If I didn't know I bought it used, I'd think I bought it new. 450$ for that is a steal of a deal. The only thing "wrong" with it is that the guy company's logo is printed on the pouch, but I'll just cover it up with a patch from mine

So now I don't have to carry a multimeter and a loop calibrator with me - this thing does both.

For once I'm finally happy with how my life is going. I feel valued at work, I have fun, and I feel my job matters. There's a big dairy factory running some of my shit and depending on things I physically installed. The money is a nice plus. The only thing I'm not satisfied with is that I want to travel for work, but that'll come when I'm out of school, and we're starting to get bigger contracts from farther too.

I have this thing where, no matter what I accomplish, I can never be certain I deserved it. Most of the time it feels like I was simply at the right place at the right time. I keep challenging myself and set progressively higher goals for myself, while almost never failing, but this feeling just won't go away. I don't even know why I have this compulsive need to be the best, I just do. It's some form of insecurity that I just can't seem to break free of. I need to keep proving to myself that I've got what it takes, except I'm never satisfied with the proof. It never stops, either.

I used to be like this too. Then I suffered through what I considered my ultimate failure and pretty much became a hikikomori for 2 years. It tore me apart as a person and I had to pick myself up bit by bit, piece by piece. I mellowed out considerably, though sometimes it's hard not to go back to the old habit of putting way too much pressure on myself to succeed and be the best there ever was. I used to think "winning is fun and losing sucks and that's all there is to anything". Not so. It's more fun to take your time and wander around. The thing with trying to be the best at everything is that you shy away from things you think you're not good at.

I can't say I recommend the method I used to get there but it's been much better for my mental health.

As for teamwork, here's a Marcus Aurelius quote on point : "It’s silly to try to escape other people’s faults. They are inescapable. Just try to escape your own."

And this one too : "Just that you do the right thing. The rest doesn’t matter."

In fact, just read the whole Meditations. Hope it helps.

Marcus Aurelius really had his shit together. Thanks, Seroim, I'll be sure to read it.

So I got an email from Tapatalk...we could automatically migrate to Tapatalk groups if we wanted.

Meanwhile, forcibly migrated over in NH Zetaboards.

In fairness, I always thought that all mouses were about the same except for the expensive ones with gaudy LED lighting.

Hmm, looked it up, TIL that "mouses" is a correct plural form if you're talking about the computer peripheral.