To be attractive to others, you have to be attractive to yourself. If you can't look in the mirror and like what you see, then it reflects outward. It doesn't matter what others think and feel...it's all about how you feel. If you feel desirable, then that's the aura that you put out and that others will pick up on.
Sure, some will pass on by and move on to someone else, but that's just how it goes. Even those that are considered "desirable" by society's standards have their own hurdles to get through, and the vain ones aren't always lucky enough to have those "good" looks forever. Everyone has preferences for what they look for...but that doesn't mean that you should go through any changes to suit a group of people. Go through them for yourself, because you want to change for you.
It's not that I consider myself unattractive really...it's just now I'm starting to see results and I want it all, I guess. It'd just be a fun change to be the guy everyone wants for awhile, who everyone fantasizes about when they're alone doing naughty things, who gets pursued rather than always perusing others...it's not that it really bothers me, I just think it'd be fun to experience that. If I were to really go into it though, I think my issue has more to do with charisma than physical attractiveness...having been a shy loner most of my life, it doesn't come naturally to me. Even today, it's hard for me to strike up conversations with people I'm not close with, even online, cause I end up worrying that I'm just bothering them and that they would rather be doing something else rather than talk to me.
lol, it's not even all that important to me to be honest...just one of those things that come up when I think of what ifs.
Skyrim was great at the time, but I feel like everyone is either viewing it through rose-tinted glasses, or else finds mods much more exciting and appealing then I do.
I detest them. I find fundamental inconsistencies in theme and tone like the ones introduced by mods inordinately grating. Total conversions I like; little things you insert with no rhyme or reason to their location infuriate me.
I found Oblivion far more appealing, most likely because really I'm just fondly remembering the Shivering Isles and the incredible sense of wonder I felt exploring the place. Never had that feeling in Skyrim, whether in Dragonborn or that Vampire one.
New Vegas is best Bethesda though
Skyrim is still great at this time, because it still sets the standard for what most RPGs are judged by today...the vast open and immersive world, the quality and quantity of quests, the freedom to do much of what you want in the game, and the ability to mod it however you like...for better or for worse, lol. It's why people are still playing it over five years later, and why there are few if any RPGs that have surpassed it since.
I know I'm thinking of delving back into Skyrim to roleplay the game as a character for the first time, instead of just as what I myself would do if I were really in the game. I'm thinking of playing a high elf who rejected the idea of Elven supremacy and because of that was forced into exile from the Summerset Isles when the Thalmor came into power. I've even thought of keeping a journal of my character's travels in Skyrim here if I find the time to do it
I highly recommend watching the documentary Breaking the Cycle, in which the deputy warden of Halden Prison, Norway (often called the world's most humane max-security prison) visits Attica in New York. It's really fascinating to see the stark contrast between the traditional "tough on crime" philosophy of US prisons and the humane philosophy of Norwegian ones.
(I also recommend watching its prequel, The Norden - Nordic Prisons, in which former Attica superintendent visits prisons throughout Scandinavia.)
Thanks! I just realized I hadn't replied back...I bookmarked both links to watch in the future. I'm always looking for things to watch when I'm eating meals at the computer...
