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Everyone's getting sick lately...two weeks later I still have a cough in the mornings from the cold I had. I hope that you feel better soon, North.

Holy fucking shit.

I just had one of the best evil villain dreams ever.  In this dream, I was this OP villain with wings that was for some reason tasked with killing this specific group of people.  Along with having wings, I had this power that if I was able to touch someone (actually making contact with their skin, like touching their face), I could plant ideas in their head until they wouldn't be able to resist.  I was also exceptionally manipulative already without use of any powers.

So after I killed my first person (I pushed them into a swamp filled with alligators), the others in the group saw me, so I started approaching them while they cowered a bit.  I stepped in a puddle, and almost immediately I decided to plant the idea that water was something that hurt me.  So when I stepped in it, I got this pained look in my face and immediately pulled my foot out.  They clearly took notice, and after doing this a couple of times I flew to a nearby building that was on a cliff overlooking a river.

I don't remember how I even killed the next person, but I convinced the others on the same floor that there was something important in the next room that I had to get to.  You know, a room that had an "important" paper on a desk right in front of a window that, if I were clumsy or were pushed would send me to the river below (you know, if I didn't have wings and couldn't just fly back up).  So I try to get to the room, and "fight" my way past one of the group (of course by killing them) and I make it to the room.  Right on plan, one of the people tries to throw me out the window, completely forgetting that I even have wings and that the plan is silly.

Here's where it gets really interesting.  I turn around and put my hand gently on her neck.  She gets a look on her face because of my power that I have, and I walk her to a room where her son is at...and of course he doesn't try anything because I've got his mother in hand.  So I lean close and whisper into her ear and use my earlier power to convince her that she's just so hungry and that her son looks delicious right now.  I then let her go, and she goes after her own son.  I walk off, assuming that she killed and ate her son like she was convinced to do so...or he killed her to defend himself.

As I'm walking away, I get stopped by one of last of the group walking up the stairs who tries to threaten me.  I touch his hand with mine and convince him that the person downstairs was saying things about him that weren't true, and that if he kills them, we could do "things" together (followed by a wink).  He smiles and goes downstairs to kill the guy.  He was cute, and in my mind at that moment I was thinking that I would follow through before I killed him...or I'd use my power and manipulate him to my side.

And then I wake up.  I've actually never had a villain dream before.  It was really interesting.

Been feeling more villainous lately?

No, not really.  I actually don't know where that dream came from.  It's definitely a first that I've ever had any kind of dream where I was the bad guy. 

Aaahhh I feel happy today

So I had a seizure 3 days ago in the morning. About 2 hours ago, outta nowhere I start sweating, it gets difficult to breathe and I started feeling lightheaded. I thought it might have been a panic attack, but I can't be sure because I've never had one before. I'm not really sure how to feel about it. >_>

I'm glad that you are happy today, @Lumenland!

Before they made a bunch of changes to the format, I was a big fan of the show Extreme Weight Loss...basically it would consist of a weight loss and lifestyle coach coaching massively overweight people for an entire year, with the goal of getting them to a healthy weight. I'm talking about people who were 400 pounds plus...sometimes several hundred pounds heavier than that. For the first three months, he would live with them and be with them through the whole day...the show paid their paychecks so they didn't have to work, the show bought their healthier food, etc. Then he moved out and other than occasional meetings and phone/online discussions it was up to the person to continue their progress.

It may sound silly that someone needs so much support just to lose weight, but as someone who fortunately is not that heavy I can understand how it can be a help. It's not just doing a bit more exercise or eating a bit less...it's making lifestyle changes that are hard to take on. All I am doing is trying to get in 10,000 steps and cut down on sugar and for me it's hard. It's hard to find the time to walk when you work a job that's primarily sitting at a desk all day, and I don't think the lower half of my body has ever been sore so much in my life. I'm constantly having to find the willpower not to indulge in soda or sugary snacks and desserts, because I know that I will during the holidays...I love cookies and pies and cakes and all the rest of it bewteen Thanksgiving and Christmas. It's doubly hard because when you're big you don't have a lot of energy...I've been many weights over my life, and I know that at least for me there's a point where it's hard to have any sort of ambition or desire or want to do anything besides get through the day because all your energy is just maintaining your body. I've been there a few times...the difference in how you feel is stark. I can't even imagine how it feels when you're 400, 500, 600, 700+ pounds.

But so far in spite of everything I think I've done pretty good, and whether its my imagination or not, I think I'm starting to see results. At least from what I can see, I look like slightly less of a whale, and my clothes fit slightly better, and soreness aside I have much more energy than I did even two or three weeks ago...when I'm not immediately tired cause I overdid it like I did yesterday. I think my initial goal is 270 pounds. That is around the weight I was when I joined NationStates back in 2013. Then my goal will be 240, which was what I weighed before I got ill back in 2012. I won't exactly be the hottest guy ever, lol, but I'll be healthier and I'll feel better for it.

So I had a seizure 3 days ago in the morning. About 2 hours ago, outta nowhere I start sweating, it gets difficult to breathe and I started feeling lightheaded. I thought it might have been a panic attack, but I can't be sure because I've never had one before. I'm not really sure how to feel about it. >_>

It could certainly be a panic attack, but if you're concerned about it you should see a doctor just for peace of mind if nothing else. I've only had what I think was a panic attack once...I was at work a few years ago, and I start getting ill...to the point of needing to throw up, which is something I hadn't done probably in over ten years at that point. I worry about these things to begin with, and add to it that it was late in the evening, so I was worried about collapsing or something and nobody finding me until the next day. >_> When I was done and just about to get out of the stall, I also started sweating out of nowhere and feeling lightheaded, and I felt like the world was closing in on me...like tunnel-vision. I was fortunately able to get my wits together, start taking deep breaths, and after a few minutes the feeling lifted.

As for the overall illness, I think I got food poisoning. Some co-workers and I had ate lunch at a steakhouse that day because it was someone's favorite restaurant...later on my mom would work there as a hostess and tell me how nasty the cooks/dishwashers were when it came to sanitation, so I've never been back since.

I seriously need to stop watching these stupid presidential debates...

I seriously need to stop watching these stupid presidential debates...

Agreed.  They only seem to make me sad and embarrassed to be an American.

I have to get used to it. It's my future career.

Kaine killed it, in case you were wondering. He had all the aggression that the Clinton campaign had been lacking. Maybe Pence can play the "civilized in the face of vehemence" martyr, but I doubt that will last long.

I think Kaine should have won, but to the general American populace I doubt that's the case. Pence did a very good job of appearing reasonable (at least until the end), and I feel like Kaine's attempted aggression did fall a bit flat, especially towards the beginning.

It could certainly be a panic attack, but if you're concerned about it you should see a doctor just for peace of mind if nothing else. I've only had what I think was a panic attack once...I was at work a few years ago, and I start getting ill...to the point of needing to throw up, which is something I hadn't done probably in over ten years at that point. I worry about these things to begin with, and add to it that it was late in the evening, so I was worried about collapsing or something and nobody finding me until the next day. >_> When I was done and just about to get out of the stall, I also started sweating out of nowhere and feeling lightheaded, and I felt like the world was closing in on me...like tunnel-vision. I was fortunately able to get my wits together, start taking deep breaths, and after a few minutes the feeling lifted.

Since it happened I've had this odd feeling in my head. I don't understand it. >_<

Can you describe the feeling at all?