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Makes sense that you'd take the name Eldarion. Love that reference.

So I just arrived at my summer program, so the touristy part of my trip is over. Not sure how that affects my activity level from here on out.

Also @BraveSirRobin have you seen this gif?

NO I HAVEN'T BUT IT'S AMAZING!!!

god fucking damn it...damn it...damn it...damn it...I really want to kill someone right now....fml....I don't fucking need this...

http://businesstech.co.za/news/general/120579/white-people-must-stop-being-cry-babies-malema/

http://businesstech.co.za/news/government/123681/rich-must-pay-for-water-and-electricity-of-the-poor-malema/

http://businesstech.co.za/news/government/126069/we-will-take-land-without-compensation-where-we-govern-malema/

http://businesstech.co.za/news/government/127017/me-mandela-and-jesus-christ-malema/

This guy. I think we as white South Africans should start seeing the writing on the wall and get the hell out of here. Now if I can just find myself some money.

Ayyy, it's my birthday today (or it will be in four minutes).

I have a really fucking bad headache but I'm drinking Coke rip

Ayyy, it's my birthday today (or it will be in four minutes).

I have a really fucking bad headache but I'm drinking Coke rip

HAPPEH BIRFDAY BODOBOL!!

EDIT:  I was the first person to wish you happy birthday on your birthday.   

I'm pretty sure I finally found what I want to do with my life, but applications are closed until next year.

Drat.

Ayyy, it's my birthday today (or it will be in four minutes).

I have a really fucking bad headache but I'm drinking Coke rip

Hey, happy birthday, man!

So I've come to the conclusion...I'm not making enough money to advance my life. Even going back to full time, I'll just be making enough to pay the bills and not go further into debt. I don't want to feel like I'm stagnating in life. I don't want to feel like I'm stagnating...always having to deal with the same issues, always stressing out over the same things. I'd like to move someday...to a better neighborhood, to a better town, to a better state...I'd like to be closer to people that understand me. I'd like to feel like I'm making a difference to people in life. I still feel the hunger and I don't want to settle down and just deal with it.

I need to do something...something between a second menial job and something like here that I enjoy doing but don't make any money on (I appreciate our donators for making it less expensive for me though!). I need the best of both...I mean, the person behind Corruption of Champions makes 20k a month, and that game isn't anything that I couldn't have made. I have some ideas for things to...and hey, if worse comes to worse, I could always make some sort of nation-based farmville-like game...I mean, people would pay $10 for a factory in their nation that increased their production of whatever by some amount, right? Or a clicker-game...

I'm grateful that I've come as far in life as I have. I'm the first in my family to have obtained a college degree of any sort, and I'm able to work with computers and programming in an area that has just a handful of those jobs. I have a good amount of flexibility in my schedule, and I have good benefits...but I want to feel like I'm making a difference in my life, and in the lives of others. I want to make things that people use and enjoy and get some value of...I don't want to feel like a digital paper-pusher that shuffles reports to people that make the decisions...

I'd play the fuck outta a nation farmville game

But would you pay the fuck out of one?

My dog died tonight. 15 years spent with him, and I feel no different. My mom was crying and crying and I didn't know what to do except offer platitudes. It was pretty much the same when my grandma died too. She raised me and I felt nothing when she passed.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm broken.

My dog died tonight. 15 years spent with him, and I feel no different. My mom was crying and crying and I didn't know what to do except offer platitudes. It was pretty much the same when my grandma died too. She raised me and I felt nothing when she passed.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm broken.

I can relate to losing a dog. I'm so sorry.

I've lost a dog too before...for me, it wasn't so much an emotional response at the time, but I often think of him. They really become like part of the family.

Someone needs to build a wall around RL.

I actually sat with my dog that I had for nearly a decade in her last moments as the vet put her down.  I was about 18/19 at the time, and I still think it's the hardest I've ever cried.  It made it even harder when she looked at me right before she passed.

My dog died tonight. 15 years spent with him, and I feel no different. My mom was crying and crying and I didn't know what to do except offer platitudes. It was pretty much the same when my grandma died too. She raised me and I felt nothing when she passed.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm broken.

I think felt similarly when my grandfather died as well as when two of my cats died -- one was 21 (and I was present at his death) and the other 12. I think I kind of went from denial to acceptance and skipped the other stages of grief. I was not sad, rather I more pitied their deaths -- the idea of their no longer existence was sad, but it did not bring about any real emotions from me. I don't think it means we are broken, but probably just a bit out of touch with our emotions -- though I'm not sure whether that is a good or bad thing.