It's been a challenging week...it's been hard for me to get motivated about much of anything, Monday I was having stomach issues, and then yesterday I had a migraine. Telltale signs that I've pushed my body to the limit with stress...it's not that anything stressful has happened recently, but I think I just grind things out so much I never recover from earlier stress. I think I just need to balance in more relaxation time, and I mean actual relaxation, not setting at the computer and mindlessly watching Youtube.
But it's hard, because I feel like I'm falling behind in life...I want to advance things, to improve my standing at work, to make more money and be able to offer a better life for me and my mom, and to make Wintreath a better place. But it's a struggle to do more than just the bare minimum to maintain things, especially in the last eight months since I participate in or have taken over a lot of household chores on top of everything. But in spite of that, it's not that I don't have time to advance things...for the most part I'm not ever horribly busy. I guess I'm just burned out cause I never take any time for myself, at least not quality relaxation time.
But I figure that's a pretty usual problem in the modern world, so at least I'm not alone.
Wintermoot, with respect to Wintreath feel free to take a short break if you need too. Remember that life isn't necessarily a race, there is no finish line beyond that of our eventual deaths. You've worked quite a bit lately, and you have a lot on your plate, you can (and probably should) slowdown, you don't need to be sprinting and dashing constantly. Slowdown and take a slow walk through the path of life if you can. That isn't to say stop trying, but no one will blame you if you take a step back and allow others to do things a bit more.
In Wintreath that probably means allowing others to do things, pushing a bit for additional recruiters. I understand you want to grow wintreath, however letting others take some steps forward doesn't mean you are incapable. It doesn't make you a bad Monarch, you just have other stuff to attend too. If you must, take a few days from Wintreath. We won't set ourselves on fire, and we will still be here.
With respect to your own life, and addressing your own burnout, I can't entirely suggest or give you suggestions that might work. However, I would suggest perhaps pulling back and not starting any projects which would increase your stress levels. If you can, try make some tea (or a drink you know you would like), perhaps sit down and watch some TV or play a game. Do something that helps you relax. If you want go out and get out of the house. Go for a walk (perhaps go for a walk with your mother if you can), or perhaps go to a place that you can spend some time at so you can get out of the house a bit.
Wintermoot, we all care about you and want you to be safe. Burnout is horrible, and it would be horrible if you ended up leaving because of it. Ultimately I can not tell you how to live your life, you are an adult after all, however I do hope you at least listen. Remember there is no particular race, I understand you have a lot of things going on in your life. I can't say I particularly understand how you feel, I've never lost a parent. However, I do care for you,as I said before we all do. Please take care of yourself
